~카 구 라 요 ~

feel that time goes soo fast~!! can’t believe that its my end (well almost..) of my contract.. which spose to be around 10 months.. hmm.. its kinda sad but also a relieve ….i reckon i need to be my-self with at the right timing now.. as doing my uni life and .. around that age sort of girl…  <enjoy life~!!>

well this past 10 months, I do actually feel that i’m changing.. as I was such a shy n unconfident person.. (specially at work) but now i can think for nething or even trying to be wild~!! (well in some case i really do that.. just in the right moment) by working with people i now know more about them and trying to understand more and deal with them according to their level.

this past 10 months many things happened.. high and low.. not just my career life but also social.. but mostly.. atm i’m driven away from it.. ><`!! that’s y im trying to get it back hmm this also includes my self moment ^^ hoho.. i’m trying to think back to my lessons… as i really hope i do have enough time.. >< but where do i get the $$ from~??~ haha life soo confusing.. hopefully its not a joke.. as I dun get it~! (quote from Flower.. collection of wisdom book )

as ppl said to have uni life… i should luv it.. but then i always scare to have sumthing new… new friends.. new  uni… (as i never been there… hmm) well keep crossing my finger that all will be well…

its less than a week to go to uni… i hope i can prepare well.. but b4 that.. i’m gonna have my holiday`!!! yay… eventho its like in a rush.. >< my onli holiday is like 3 days~!!! arghhhh….  "life’s tough" I really do hope I would enjoy it…  as I was expecting to be my best holiday.. but now.. I kinda thinkin differently… hm.. (i think i should stop worriying… like n old lady aja.. >< )

i reckon i should rest now.. work early tomorrow.. n now.. is the season of cold~!! *cough..cough…* <— after eating hershey’s from Nicole~!!

well.. b4 reading the rest.. I must assure you that This blog.. might be dull… as wat ppl would like to write.. "Dear Diary".. (booooo)

neway.. should I start Dear Diary…  (soo typicall classique.. )  hmm.. btw.. its 21st July 2006. I dunno y but I found dat its a nice date… even tho it doesnt mean "SUMTHING" happen on this day.. just sound nice.. dats all…

well for a day that I long to have.. since I onli have a day off in a week (soo sad T.T~!) at least I can wake up quite late (eventho not relli late..  really odd that I didnt wake in d arvo) hmm such a nice rainy day .. but then I have sumthing plannd b4.. since I havent skate for about 2 weeks~!! (geez.. I’m weirdo.. well how many people actually skate everyweek.. ??) but this morning.. really made me to think twice coz of the rain..

but then.. I did skate~!! eventho its was showering outside and have to bring my umbrella, extra pants.. (incase if the other one got soggy.. ), double jacket, towel, and the most important things.. my skate.. which really make my bag soo "chunky". but no matter.. I was kinda eager to hit the ice..

um.. It was really nice to be back.. but  sum of the moves I learnt before are unconditionally faded away.. but I did regain in some.. did sum spin.. n jump.. (while I’m still scared.. >< ~!!)  hmm.. I was pretty amaze as well.. coz during lunch time special.. there shouldnt be many patrons.. but today.. was AwEsOmE… (I wonder where those kids are from.. dun they have school??)

i finish at around quarter to 1..  quite early to get home.. so.. being typical girl.. (or I might say.. "Woman" or Lady.. er.. most of them doesnt sound good either :P)  went to window shopping.. but.. my goodness.. my bag.. >< loaded with lots of items.. as I did get hot.. after skating.. so I took off a layer of my jacket.. n also my umbrella.. (as u dont use it in the shopping centre.. ) hm… another "big chunky green backpack bag.. " haha.. but I did survive for 2 hours.. hehe..  getting sumthing for dinner.. and bits n pieces for me.. hehe… (including my craving…. chocolate… yuumm.. ) i know its relli bad.. but I do crave chockies.. at some moment.. like wat ppl said "better than sex" (but when I do agree that statement.. doesn’t mean I did it.. arghh.. >< that moment really embarrasing.. )

I was looking for book aswell.. (and I actually reading it~!! haha) named "Felicity Wishes" by Emma Thompson not a big novel book.. its rather actually for 4-9 yo .. haha… but has real meaning of friendship and all the cuteness of the story.. (but I must say.. I read this not only for my own interest.. for the children literature as well… haha) but.. just a thin book.. it does cost a fortune.. ($9.95) while there are more than 15 books in d series.. oh nooo….. I was about to collect them all.. but.. thinking n thinking… arghhh~!!!! (btw.. by reading this blog.. you might need to know that the way i’m talking <or writting>.. has been influenced by this book )

hmm.. when I was about finish the whole "window shopping" I was tickled when I lookd at the time .. it was 3pm.. the next session of skating… I was really tempted to get back into the ice (again..`!!!???) but having the fact.. of .. having extra plastic bag in my hand.. (which has grocerries… ) so that I must decline.. T.T..

well…(i think) I chose it wisely.. and I went home..

but.. that’s not the ending yet….

when i got off from the bus.. its still pretty early to be at home..  so dat I manage to have a play in my church.. (well in other word.. practice my organ) since my pedaling still a mess..  but I did really having fun there.. as no one hear ( i think.. well .. i hope..) just play the songs I know…. in the end.. I thought I heard sum1 coming into the church.. trying peek.. slowly… haha.. (trying not to be known by that person as well.. haha) and he was there.. in the end of the row.. (that’s y its so hard to find.. ) so I decide to stop.. since I’ve been pretty long enough.. (even not to the fullest) but I think I had enough..

and that’s almost my day.. in a day…

now.. after writting this.. I’m gonna watch McPhee… ( I really wait till the DVD out.. hehe) this I rent it from Ezy.. well.. sumthing to watch.. at nite..  I was soo curious about the story in movie.. as when I read the book It’s rather interesting.. this movie was actually adapted from a book (well not relli a book, there’re 3 series ~!!) of Nurse Matilda by Christianna Brand. such a small little books.. but when you got into 3rd series .. its rather bit boring.. as some of the line are repeated… (well its intended for children.. soo should be understand la.. hehe)

hmm after having my back.. ache.. (coz the "chunky" bag) I thought that today is rather a full day (even not to the fullest) so that I wont be so tired for tomorrow.. as I do have big day tomorrow… >< work - then playing on the mass… hm..

this commitment.. Is actually made me bit limited.. as I do miss some of the fun from the other groups I missed when they go outing.. some activities.. and all the gathering.. together.. but I believe working hard.. should have result in the end.. hm.. (but I still missed my friends…)

i still remember some of the memories from the groups.. how we’re called "team huru-hara" of Mudika Newtown.. soo cute.. hehe.. like yesterday.. I went to "my first time ever" concert.. It was ok i think.. well.. I was quite happy by knowing most of the people n being with all my friends.. and especially when they sing.. "King of Majesty" I really REALLY love that song.. but somehow.. I reckon last nite not.. really fast enough.. hehe just can’t believe, the huru-hara team… we sat at the front row.. as a lead team.. then other groups join up~!! GO team`!! even in the end of the concert.. when we’re taking picz of the singer.. It was.. memorabily funne.. that even pics may give impression of our nite…

My goodness .. I can’t believe that I did an essay on this blog.. haha more than 1100 words.. counted.. haha.. somehow.. i think i should stop now..  I shall prepare dinner n watch my movie..

hope you all have a good day/nite/arvo/evening.. lolz…

cheers

hm…

longing to get back… but then.. there’re still many things keeping me away. missd that precious moment… where i did those jumps n spin… its not too late to get bak i sposee.. but then.. it will be ackward to see her again…

everytime i heard sum song… i just imagine myself over the rink….  doing wat i like n no one would ever see me… hm…. such a limitation..  just wait till i can get over there myself… (i should be able tho… i believe…)

would remember…once i woke up at 4.. hoho.. for the first time ever.. for sumthing… like… skating.. ?? hoooo i still can feel the smell of new ice… n now.. even in winter.. reminds me all the time..

finding a new way.. shouldnt be so easy.. but i know i can try to do it.. (for it is.. sposee to be fun.. n sporty.. )

hm.. interesting topic.. yet i still dunno wat’s that yet.. haha

luv or lust..? even in d library.. there’re no definite aznwer…in between of the dewey number… well, there’re sum explanation.. like in how to.. or even sum bit n pieces.. but .. i doubt its wat i’m looking for.. <—> dude.. i do sound nerd.. (eek.. I’M NOT~!! ) just … argh u know la.. working in sum environment can actually affect u.. either in long term or short term.. *just hopefully i dun become such a real librarian (like in old librarian who "SHOOSH" evry1).. haha …. funky librarian… (hmm… might think of dat..)

(*do i sound kinda desperate??) NO noo Nooo… my goodness… for the sake.. i believe that im still clueless of wats happening to myself.. not even sure wat i’m gonna do even in d future.. yet i still curious.. (so plz b understanding.. as u may know dat dis happend/ing/.. or will be.. to u as well..) but i reckon.. i’ll learn la.. in the meantime.. jst trying not to be soo *high in hope.. (for sum cases..) hm.. whoever that might be..~?

so despite dis crap writting may not make sense as i do this unintentionally nor unconditionally…. coz i’m way too curious.. n stuffd n nothin else to do…  hope whoever read dis.. get more confused as dis already confused me as i’m confused to write this… err (i’m lost) lolz..

mtlcps