~카 구 라 요 ~

hm.. for the past few days.. till even now….  hmm.. this wat gonna happen if ure in b/w 2 nations…. groups…. collectives…. etc..

unfortunatelly enough u cant split urself so u wont missd nething… just haf 2 b smart enough to gain the most…  T.T yet eventho all of them have positive and negatives in both side…but i understand dat i have to take ne responsibility of my own action…

hm.. wat a confusing world.. b/w 2 nations… which one i am… ‘konflik batin’ that’s wat ppl said… coz i can’t leave one of them.. yet i can’t be left by one of them… STUCK

in b/w 2 groups… well actually more~~~ its like my own body being streched… they can understand me.. but i don’t want to leave them.. but i don’t want to be left behind as well…  all the news.. as one said that i can just reach for my own happiness.. but how can i find it without being in one of them. but if only one of them its not fair for the other…

in b/w ……. these times.. all decision have to be critically decided… hmm… this modern world.. all chaos..  if you pick one decision.. you might want to find out about the other.. and vice versa.. yet you can’t pick both… if you don’t pick nething…. you’ll regret by doing so…

well it is sad when sum1 not gonna staying in d future…., specially when that person means special 4 u. not only that u may miss those great moment together, but u might scare that u won’t keep in touch, or even worse lose …~!! .well, only hope and best wishes for … if you’re happy i’m happy for you too… ^^ keep it easy as sum1 said… hopefully time will ease me as i believe .. perhaps another time i might know the reason for all this …….

hm.. its been decided.. that i’m gonna skate again`!! yay`!! well been trying hard to have conflict withing myself… but now, i reckon i just go on with the flow.. i dun wanna stressd out with comps n stuffs.. i just wanna have it as my sport and my relax time~ since uni n perhaps work as well… are kinda too much.. especially when u see the reading ><! ugh… 

hopefully i still can do those flip.. >< been quite a while actually.. n its the second time i postpone my skating.. sad… but now i really hope i don’t get into too emotionally involved and mix it up with my other live…

uhmm cant believe its just ended like a ’snap’.. well soo many things happening at the same time… my week been soo full~!! but lets just start at my ’snowy’…

the second time i went… n it went well.. i tried not to fall`!!! which is sposedly been pretty good until on the last day.. sum1 bashd me from the back~!!! arghh >< and got dizzy…. n also the wind factor~~ which made me cold now.. *sigh* but first day was AwEsOmE!! really nice weather~~~ hmm can do turns.. n learning to do the parrallel turn`!! <with a hint of lesson… which is pretty cool..> after that day.. my body aching n bruises all over my leg arghhh sooo annoyin`~~ couldn’t sleep~~

regardless the pain i had.. i had soo much fun both individually and socially which is good… well that’s wat i want to have for my best 3-days holiday~~~

now i feel kinda refresh 4 my uni n work.. ><  which is spose to be fun~~ or at least filling my life for sumthing difference… having my real life.. on where i’m spose to be..  but uni + work.. is kinda bit deadly.. specially if u do it over 6 days a week…

first day at uni…

well i can’t say much coz it was my first experience of lecture… hmm… history… i dun mind listening to the lecture.. n also the tutoring…. but i do mind of the reading~~ as im not a good read myself (eventho working in the library give me bit of push of reading… ) but dats not a good helper either…

first time in the class.. really made me the impression of being geek (ahaha) well in the introduction most people saying that they work in retail, or like dances, music or even going to drop the course out… n my only intro was i work in library.. (eeek..) n every1 like nod.. including the lecturer.. hahaa.. it does give me the impression of nerd hahaha + glasses. hmmm other thing that’s noticeable on that day was.. my name wasn’t on the list~!!! i tried to give my impression that i’m not there… but lec just nod.. in the end of the class.. i said to him.. n he said.. probs i’m not spose to be in his class… n i AM NOT sposedly on that class… >< agrhhhh first day of dissasster~!!  i already in one of the group.. n i caught up in this dilema…  hmm.. hopefully i can fix it up by next week.. coz the assingment can’t wait patiently…

hmm… trying to concentrate… now.. n do as best as i can.. coz i know i can do it.. or else.. it will take longer years to finish it off… ><