~카 구 라 요 ~

what should i start with my day…sleepless night…

as it is been pretty dry weeks… and yet i can’t see my other groups for more than 2 weeks. and yet i missd out most of the events. sometime i should be greatful as the days arent jsut too much for me, but those feeling of missing them is not great either.

keep thinking & this bug keep wandering around me. why is it so? why do you call this life? that so complicated like walking around and knowing nothing happening to you. i tried to figure it out and the more i think about the more i get confused

i should be able to stand on this days, but why even the slightest strenght drew me away. why everything that i caress more seem so different , that most of the days became grey, nothing to be please about.

shouldn’t i be greatful for what i am? why do i need more? what more do i need? this human nonsense of living, always wants more than what they are there. i should be able to accept what happening shouldnt i? why it is so hard to face? what more i shall expect? and yet nothing would be the same way i’m thinking.

Oh therefore, Lord of Mercy, please grant me to accept anything, even the bitterness in my life that shall made my life colourful later on when i look back.

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