~카 구 라 요 ~

Well after certain negative thing that might happen to you, may make you feel down. But by having this experience in the end you should know that you learn something new. You can learn to cope and accept certain thing that un-change-able. In one case, in a week time, after you lose a member in your family and in the next day, you got rejected from you work application, some people would say, why this is all suddenly happening to me?? Where is my God my Salvation?? Is this a joke???

But…

I feel the opposite, I don’t feel so much down, or upset…. (Is it me or my consciousness that hasn’t been there yet??) Not that I don’t grief, but the feeling of acceptance is there… and you don’t feel that you are alone in the middle of darkness. I believe that in present moment there’s someone that actually calm me down. As I trust in Him. I know somehow that I can let go this matter quite steadily…

I do learn important lesson through this week, a lesson that you won’t be able to learn in normal school. As most people know that life is fragile and should make the best in every chance, but there also that God who always beside us giving us the strength to accept and cope through time then build the strength back to stand up, and make it all beautiful in the end. A beautiful life of a mankind.

hmm cant believed that it happened so fast not even a week~!!!!

you know that…. we all love you..

and of course.. without you.. i won’t be here~!!

its a pity that i cant see you for the last time..

i was planning to visit over next year.. but seem that its too late now..

sorry opa, i want to see you but now… how can i?

however i really hope you can see oma and be happy there ~!!

…you know we all love you….

tiruttitut

Come to his aid o Saints of God, come meet him, Angels of the Lord.

May Christ who called you take you home, may Angels lead to Abraham.

Give him eternal rest of Lord, may light unending shine on him.

Receive his soul o Saints of God, present him now to God most high.

well….

i got accepted to my librarianship…

what would that place be??

hopefully will be all good….

*finger cross*

My dear

My love

My trully,

Today is a special day indeed, you know… in indo.. its hari pahlawan, in Aussi its remembrance day, in my heart… its your birthday~!!!

Happy birthday~!!! eventhough I can’t really say so, but I still remember this special day to you… do you know how I miss you so much… that I keep thinking about you,  sometimes I also feel that you’re always watching over me.

Eventho I can’t hear you, I’m sure you can hear me…. it’s not fair…. (i think in my child-like) that you watch over me most the time, but I can’t see you except from the pictures and all the memories from the past.

well, I really hope to see you.. eventho just in my dream, please visit me and calm me down as sometimes I need you beside me.

you see,  I’m in my 20s now~!!! my way is still long, this what I have done, half working and half studying, half open n close to all my friend… all my life.. you can see…. still, many rocks in my ways, but I know God will lead my way… isn’t this what you taught me? I can’t be too selfish, I hope I can fiddling out through my way….  surely… and I hope I can….

you will guide me and give hint won’t you?? well sposse this ‘curhat’ is to letting you know how I miss you so much…..

teach me to dance will you?? I know those passion… till now I can’t stop moving.. even in library where its spose to be quite n peacefull.. but perhaps this will brighten the day in the library… <oh how much I love those place>

well many things to remember, and I do remember you… how you taught me cha cha, jive, waltz…. that’s been kept into my heart… how you cried in the airport when I was about to start my life here, I wasn’t really sure why at that time, but now I feel it… I love you so much… its been 6 years…. and more… I still miss you….

and love you always….

You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.  ~Author Unknown

well,

to my dear friends, i would like to say thanks to you all for letting me being me. for the chance for me to open up to all that make me become much more confident than before. i would really happy that you’re always be here and there for me and teach me what the meaning of humanity.

you know that you keep teasing me as ‘kiddy’ well i spose.. i am.. in no doubt i still feel that i am. but eventho like this, i should be greatful shouldnt i? sometimes i do, but please as a good friendship, never under estimate a child. ^^ as those feeling of being oppressed is not nice. but at the same time, i should be able to feel that i’m part of the community as well. that i can responsible of what i’m doing and learn from you guys.

for at last, i am greatful to have friends like you… that i can be …simply…. me~!

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