~카 구 라 요 ~

I’m tired

the world move so fast

so fast that I can’t keep up

there are so many things to do

And not enough time to see the sunrise and sunset

I’m cold

my front and back is white

so is my right and left

they’re just a thick while wall

I’m torn

between pages of life

between humanities

between places

I’m lost

it’s not just two ways, but many

there are too many options

and yet I don’t know all of them

I want to close my eyes

but my time is not up yet

i can make it quicker

but I don’t think it’s the right way

Help me before I loose my mind

or has my mind been lost

and I just realize it now?

Funny, I don’t even know who I am

so, who am I?

a sweet girl waiting for a candy cane

or, a brat who seek for a rebellion

I think I’ve lost my identity

free floating out there~

and where is there?

no body knows

litte t.

Easter is a time when Christians remember Jesus who has died on a cross and rise again. This remembrance also included in part of the mass when we receive Holy Communion. However, this message is not just about communion as receiving body of Christ, but also being ‘in’ with Christ.

Communion is not just receiving the body of Christ, but also means being together in the community. Togetherness brings us into one church, to be united as Christians.

So we remember the Jesus being crucified on the cross to save us, but we need to ask, save us from what? Sin? What have we done so much for a son of God to be crucified?

We need to look deeper on what is the core of our sin, which started from our self, one self, ‘me’.  It is all about me, individualism and not being part of the community.

We asked forgiveness to God, but reconciliation is not just being ‘me and God’. It is more into being open again to the community and be back together as one Church.

Similarly, the Ten Commandments encourage us to love our God and our neighbours. These two are the foundation of being in one community of the Church, the foundation of our Christianity.

Hope this Easter can remind us to be back again as part of the community; to bow down from our self and serve one another as what Jesus taught us on Holy Thursday, to give ourselves entirely to God and His purpose shown by Jesus on Good Friday, and to rejoice in God’s glory, shown by the Resurrection for a new life.

xoxo

little. t

just because you grew here,

doesn’t mean this land is yours.

even your ancestors move here, somehow

you need to respect all people,

for all men created equal

without us,

your world will be isolated and not acknowledged

it’s not about networking

or taking advantages,

but about sharing our believes

stop racism,

it’s not the time anymore

for it is the past,

surely you don’t want to keep staying behind…

Today I went back to my playground

I saw my past friends, Sepia, Rouge, Bleu, Noir, Blanc and Grey

Sepia asked wherever I’ve been after all this time

I also been shown all the silhouettes when I was in my playground

surely it hasn’t change much, only the time and people that changed

Rouge then approached me,

my thought running wild of that glory time

now it’s just a thought,

memoir that keeps dancing in my wildest dream

Bleu teased me,

all that were matters don’t matter anymore now

soo all what matter now, won’t matter later on

none of that matter anymore, all thanks to time

Noir surprised me with so many questions

why did I leave without a word?

didn’t I miss the place I grew?

well, can’t blame anyone when I cant seen the people I loved anymore

time change, so are the people

Blanc asked quietly to me                                                    

what will you do now?

and I said,

I don’t know….

I can’t turn the time and go back to my past

just to see and feel my smile that in the past

smile without thought and worry

Grey settled me down,

time changed

people changed

so I must

Should I?

i feel bad for you, who have been educated well enough but not morally

the world you live in is not just a playground

not everything are toys and machines

seeing you would be my last option to choose if I really have to

for you have hurt me in every possible ways,

and realised I was just being used for own selfishness and arrogance

“Are you too proud, Mr Darcy? And would you consider pride a fault or a virtue?”  (J.A.)

this is what I have to learn
in university of life
learn from experience
no matter how sweet it is
or how bitter it can be

I’m sad, why the world so mean to me?
I’m hurt, what do I have to do now?
I’m lost, where do I have to go?

i closed my eyes
trying to escape from reality
but all things are just inside my brain
i can’t run, no matter what
i need the courage to move forward

oh please God,
grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference

I think better if you don’t ask me how am I being. I don’t want to give negative feedback all the time in which will give you impression of my moodiness I remember you said that I’m difficult, so I realized, I guess.. I can’t help you much for I’m not good enough to be dealt with Lastly, since you don’t understand my accent, please don’t talk to me anymore I don’t understand your abbreviation either In conclusion, try to keep the communication at minimum pace, as I don’t want to create another misunderstanding that resulting me being hurt Thank you