i feel bad for you, who have been educated well enough but not morally
the world you live in is not just a playground
not everything are toys and machines
seeing you would be my last option to choose if I really have to
for you have hurt me in every possible ways,
and realised I was just being used for own selfishness and arrogance
“Are you too proud, Mr Darcy? And would you consider pride a fault or a virtue?” (J.A.)
this is what I have to learn
in university of life
learn from experience
no matter how sweet it is
or how bitter it can be
I’m sad, why the world so mean to me?
I’m hurt, what do I have to do now?
I’m lost, where do I have to go?
i closed my eyes
trying to escape from reality
but all things are just inside my brain
i can’t run, no matter what
i need the courage to move forward
oh please God,
grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference
I think better if you don’t ask me how am I being. I don’t want to give negative feedback all the time in which will give you impression of my moodiness I remember you said that I’m difficult, so I realized, I guess.. I can’t help you much for I’m not good enough to be dealt with Lastly, since you don’t understand my accent, please don’t talk to me anymore I don’t understand your abbreviation either In conclusion, try to keep the communication at minimum pace, as I don’t want to create another misunderstanding that resulting me being hurt Thank you
apakah kerpercayaan itu?
bagaimana kita dapat percaya?
kita nggak tau apa yang akan terjadi di menit kedepan
memang kadang sulit untuk mempercayai
lebih sulit apabila pernah gagal sekali
batu yang keraspun akan erosi dengan air
tapi ahkirnya …
hanya akan menjadi karang
pupus hanyut bersama air……
aku bukanlah boneka yang dapat dimadu, lalu diracun
tapi, itu semua telah terjadi
aku pikir, mengapa aku lengah?
apa karena aku kecil dan tak berdaya?
tidak! Dunia ini lah yang kejam
dimanakah matahari disaat aku membutuhkan pelukan kehangatanmu?
dimanakah bulan yang dapat menemani aku tidur?
pedas ngilu kian terasa
adakah yang akan meminjamkan aku api?
biarlah bara api yang sangat panas
membakar aku,
boneka penuh racun
Tersebutlah, di suatu pulau kecil, tinggallah berbagai macam benda-benda abstrak. Ada Cinta, Kesedihan, Kekayaan, Kegembiraan dan sebagainya. Mereka hidup berdampingan dengan baik. Namun suatu ketika, datang badai menghempas dan air laut tiba-tiba naik dan akan menenggelamkan pulau itu. Semua penghuni pulau cepat-cepat berusaha menyelamatkan diri. Cinta sangat kebingungan sebab ia tidak dapat berenang dan tak mempunyai perahu. Ia berdiri di tepi pantai mencoba mencari pertolongan. Sementara itu air makin naik membasahi kaki Cinta. Tak lama Cinta melihat Kekayaan sedang mengayuh perahu. “Kekayaan! Kekayaan! Tolong aku!” teriak Cinta. “Aduh! Maaf, Cinta!” kata Kekayaan, “Perahuku telah penuh dengan harta bendaku. Aku tak dapat membawamu serta, nanti perahu ini tenggelam. Lagipula tak ada tempat lagi bagimu di perahuku ini.” Lalu Kekayaan cepat-cepat mengayuh perahunya pergi. Cinta sedih sekali, namun kemudian dilihatnya Kegembiraan lewat dengan perahunya. “Kegembiraan! Tolong aku!”, teriak Cinta. Namun Kegembiraan terlalu gembira karena ia menemukan perahu sehingga ia tak mendengar teriakan Cinta. Air makin tinggi membasahi Cinta sampai ke pinggang. Ia kian panik.Tak lama lewatlah Kecantikan. “Kecantikan! Bawalah aku bersamamu!”, teriak Cinta. “Wah, Cinta, kamu basah dan kotor. Aku tak bisa membawamu ikut. Nanti kamu mengotori perahuku yang indah ini,” sahut Kecantikan. Cinta sedih sekali mendengarnya. Ia mulai menangis terisak-isak. Saat itu lewatlah Kesedihan. “Oh, Kesedihan, bawalah aku bersamamu,” kata Cinta. “Maaf, Cinta. Aku sedang sedih dan aku ingin sendirian saja…” kata Kesedihan sambil terus mengayuh perahunya. Cinta putus asa. Ia merasakan air makin naik dan akan menenggelamkannya. Pada saat kritis itulah tiba-tiba terdengar suara, “Cinta! Mari cepat naik ke perahuku!”Cinta menoleh ke arah suara itu dan melihat seorang tua dengan perahunya. Cepat-cepat Cinta naik ke perahu itu, tepat sebelum air menenggelamkannya. Di pulau terdekat, orang tua itu menurunkan Cinta dan segera pergi lagi. Pada saat itu barulah Cinta sadar bahwa ia sama sekali tidak mengetahui siapa orang tua yang menyelamatkannya itu. Cinta segera menanyakannya kepada seorang penduduk tua di pulau itu, siapa sebenarnya lelaki tua tadi. “Oh, orang tua tadi? Dia adalah Waktu.” kata orang itu. “Tapi, mengapa ia menyelamatkanku? Aku tak mengenalnya. Bahkan teman-teman yang mengenalku pun enggan menolongku” tanya Cinta heran. “Sebab,” kata orang itu, “hanya Waktu-lah yang tahu berapa nilai sesungguhnya dari Cinta itu …
Where is silly?
I miss silly
Where’d silly go?
Can you find silly?
Has silly gone?
Why didn’t say goodbye?
If you ever find silly..
Can you please forward the message?
I got 2 HDs, but I can’t get the third one, as I’m not strong enough
Sorry
it’s when people breathing
it’s when they feel each other presence
it’s when one person fall another would raise
its when they walk through every second, minute, hour, day, week, year, decade, century.. etc
it’s when they talk to each other, spreading up the news
it’s when the younglings learn for their future, and the olds learn from the past
it’s when interaction made between two organic matter
it’s when people can feel the warmth of day and cool of nights
it’s when people can see light and darkness and they have the option to choose what they want
well, too much complication of life in today’s world. and it’s people has been confused before they even realised. so many negative aspects over positive one and more human can’t even differentiate them. it’s too chaotic.
is the only way is to escape? i guess that’s the easiest and quickest way to clean own hand. who knows… what’s lies beneath after life. will there be any peaceful life? or long lasting dream? or just a dark matter?
so many news of unhappy end, and yet people don’t learn from it. or perhaps it’s the trend? so, what will the world end up like?
is this how people think now? selfness. because, if you don’t think for yourself first, you will be the victim of others. when people think for oneself, they’re not just hurting the people surround, but also themselves. pity for those who can’t take it anymore, as the burdens are just too heavy, only short cuts is the only way to escape.ironically, there are many ways to do so.. and human has been given freewill to decide for their own.
wish if people listen more and start from the very early of humanities. although this sounds dumb, people need to rely to others so problems can be solved with ease.
too many people, too many problems, and yet we still need our privacy. i think that’s the problem.
people have wall surround, it’s not to close oneself, but to see who cares enough to tear them down.
Having dinner in many places, but mostly all asian, and had so much difficulties in finding meals
Watching at the fallen stars: red, green, yellow and the marks on the road too.. it just like sewing patterns!
Visiting many libraries, just to prove that I’m a geek
Play table tennis till 1 of the balls went out from the window and dunno where it went
Watching movies although I closed my eyes most of the time
Nudge on the computer till it went frozen
Sending so much sms till my bill over the limit
Talk all the crap most the time, even though sometime I don’t know the meaning, or when I use lots of wrong terms n grammars
But most of all,
….having company to keep me accompanied…
